GRRR.... Customer service.

So here's the thing people, if you call into a phonebank and want something fixed you may wanna keep a few things in mind..... Here are some pointers...

A) The person who answers your call is just that a person. So even if you are PISSED try to be nice. They are not the cause of your problem and probably will do everything they can to fix said problem. Calling some who you can see names is just mean and rude. Plus, mane calling just makes you look uneducated. Especially if you make assumptions about their life. I had a caller tell me to quit my job and go to college. For the record, I am going to college. Look, you know nothing about that agent's life. So don't BITCH about their life choices. That's just rude.

B) Don't yell. Most agents are on headsets which makes it pretty impossible for them to pull it away from their ear. Yelling=pain. Just be nice. I don't come to your work and yell at you.

THANK YOU AND HAVE A GREAT DAY.

This life known as mine....

So, lots of exciting things are happening all at once in my life, Woo. =)

But, I have one issue I need to vent about. People, a handful friends of mine, keep telling me I'm handling this all wrong or that I'm just repeating what i've done in the past. Repeatedly....

I get some people aren't going to be behind me 100% and won't like how I'm handling things. I admit I'm kinda making my own path as I go. And that there are similarities between my life now and my life just over a year ago and I am well aware of them and exactly how deep they go. So back the FUCK off!!! At this moment in time I don't have the time or energy to deal with arguing over this or any bullshit drama I know that will upset a few people but oh fucking well.

This is the LAST TIME I will say this. I am happy and this is MY life if you don't approve of how I'm doing things or this choices I make and feel the need to BITCH at me for them then A) FUCK OFF and B) Either keep it to yourself or you know where the goddamn door is! I refuse to put up with this shit!

That concludes this broadcast. Thank you for calling and have a wonderful day.

Pray for rain..

So I realize I live in the bible belt. I do. But really A Day of Prayer for Rain?! I'm sorry, I thought there was supposed to be separation of church and state or something... I really think this is Mary's best idea. (NOT!)

I mean, this is Oklahoma, wouldn't make more sense to organize a traditional rain dance of all the Indian Nations?

Never mind, I'm not Christian and slightly offended on a personal level. But to ask the citizens of your state to pray for rain...... Classy, very classy.

YO!

So lack of interwebs makes blogging a pain to keep up with.

I finally got a job! XD XD XD Waiting tables at Olive Garden in Owasso. Not the greatest job. But hey it's better than nothing. (I can already hear the new whore jokes)

And we are looking for a new place for D&D... Co-Dm's place has been decided against most likely is not going to work out. So that is a toss up when it will be happening and where now.

I hung out with The Tallest Fairy and I have had a few new adventures. Last night we went to a surprise party for a friend. (Who doesn't hate me like everyone thought. XD) Which was a blast. And we had a horrible  movie night. Dance of the dead- decent B zombie movie.(If you like zombie movies or B horror movies netflicks this) Ticked off tranies with knives- just awful, but was fun to laugh at with The Tallest Fairy.

My Co-Dm sent me into a panic attack when he either hit or kicked the back of my car and yelled while I was backing up. And suddenly I couldn't see him. I thought I had ran him over.... I started hyperventilating and cussing him. He laughed.... >.<  (Of course now I find it funny too.....) This was after running into the Owasso. Which was a nice awkward surprise, I guess.

Also, Marlyn Manson's music is the soundtrack of my life this week. A few songs that stand out are Coma White, (s)aint, This is the new Shit, Tainted Love and of course Sweet Dreams. ( I listen to angry music when I'm happy..... Yes I know it's weird)

Been forever.

Updates not in chronological order.


1) We finished Dollhouse!! The ending is amazing and awful. Like always Joss.... Boyd is a crazy, just an fyi.

2) Jobhunting still sucks.

3) Me and White Russians (the drink) do not mix well.

4) I love the lake and summer.

5)No one uses turn signals in Oklahoma and it pisses me off.

6)Babies like glowsticks.

7) Getting D&d shit together so we can actually play soon. (I should talk to my Co-DM about that I guess...)

8)No interwebs makes me bored and wanna cry.

9)Doctor Who is amazing. (I realize this is an obvious statement)

10)Questionable Content= Great web comic.

11)Phone should be shut off soon. =(

12)Sprinkler hid behind drunken relatives + getting little kids to turn it on= Highlight of the 4th

13)The Tallest Fairy is also now my gay husband.

14)My car has been dubbed Tink.

15) City of Fallen Angels, Acheron, ShadowFever, and Personal Demons all great books.

16)Beastly is a amazing book, but a boring movie.

17)Coffee is fuel. (Yes, I'm running on coffee.)

Another Year Older

So I turned twenty one today. I had a great day with my family and The Tallest Fairy. =D


I had my first legal bitch beer today... WOO?

Currently, I'm at Claremore's. He's cooking a late dinner and then we are spending his last night in the states together. =) To be perfectly honest I kindia wish he wasn't leaving. But, I'm also excited for him to have this chance. So many mixed feelings.....

I'll write more later. Hope everyone had a good weekend and a happy Father's Day.

I will stab you....

One more kitchen joke today and someone will be stabbed. Either my co-DM or Claremore.......


I'll keep you posted...

So.. It's Been A While...

So, the original D&D group has pretty much played out. Which I have mixed emotions about....
BUT, we (me and my co-DM) are getting our shit together for the other group to be able to start playing soon. XD. Which I'm very excited about. Granted, this group has more experience playing (which totally scares me since they have play more than me.....)

 Also, The Tallest Fairy and I went on an adventure. We braved the roads in the Fairy Wagon-Cruiser (I know not the name we came up with but I couldn't remember it.) And got horribly and badlyish lost. Yet, we were on the right road. (yes, we are just that talented).  This was a week after we (once again The Tallest Fairy and I) were fooled by a football (a grey one) pretending to be an armadillo. We were very disappointed. (we had tried to sneak up on it...)

I am still job hunting.... Which sucks big ones....

But my laptop is fixed!!! Thanks to my co-DM. =)=)=)=) This makes me happy beyond words..

And I found a bunch of my cds.

And in other news we have made it to the second season of DOLLHOUSE!!!!!!! (yes we are still addicts)

Just perfect....

Snuggling with the boy-check
Staring up at the stars-check
Have a deep meaningful conversation-check
That sweet happy kiss-check


Then he told me to get back in the kitchen.... Why am I with him? jk

Um.... (the rant/ weirdly deep thoughts of today)

So today I'm all about trying to make my brother happy. It was his 16th bday party a month late. Well, long story short none of his friends could come. So we go to kidnap my co-dm and decide we'll hang out or something. Well, outta the blue he brings up things (bad painful memories I don't ever like visiting) I always assumed he didn't know. I stuttered at a lost for words. I mean how do I explain the past? Especially, a past that broke me for a long time but I have move on from and that will hurt him?

I know it's naive but I just want to act like it wasn't the nightmare it was. I don't want him to see the monsters in my closet, not when I fear they could hurt him too. They would change his life. Isn't ignorance supposed to be bliss?

So, I talk to a friend and I tell him about it all. I mean it's the first time my past as come spilling out my lips and on to someone's lap in years. (which both freaks me out and pisses me off). And his grand response, "you're a victim." ....... I just blinked at him and somehow managed not to yell..... to much...
I. Hate. Being. Called. A. Victim. ( I can not stress that enough)
A victim is someone who has no control over what happens to them and/or can not save themselves. (Or at least in my eyes) I stopped being that awhile ago. I will honestly tell you that that part of my past was not my fault. It doesn't always feel that way, but I know it to be true.
If you are going to label me about my past. Call me a Survivor or something. Because I lived though it, still am somedays. When you label me a victim it chains me to being that weak and helpless. The past did that to me already, I don't need you to as well.

I hate my friends... With love.

We (the usual three) hung out tonight.We drove around Tulsa and then grabbed Arby's. (Which was tasty.) Then came back to the Land Of Too Far for a bit of guess......   YEP, Dollhouse. (Almost done with season one! =D But we will be  so so sad when we get to the end and the fact we have no life is reinforced.) But, the night was good and had lots of great jokes made about one and other. (granted if anyone else were to make these jokes about us or our friends. Lets just say a few wells would be needed.... >.>-shifty eyes-<.<)

And at one point, I had said "I hate you both." My dear Dillion replied "But with love". And the fact that if someone were not used to our crazy insulting friendship is going to be a little shocked.So my friends are amazing. Sometimes, well lots of times, a pain ass and they drive me crazy. But I do love them, most of the time.

 But, honestly I have the best friends in the world. Even on days when they are driving me crazy.

One Of Those Crazy Perfect Weekends

FRIDAY- Originally was to be spent with Claremore at bonfire. But it was moved to Saturday. So I ended up driving around and catching up with an adopted brother before going to my friend/co-dm's house to watch Dollhouse.
(Side note- If you haven't seen Dollhouse, Watch it! But be warned it's addicting.... Also DAMN YOU CHARLES AND DILLION FOR EVER SHOWING ME THAT STUPID FRIDAY SONG!!!!!)

SATURDAY- Me and my co-dm/friend helped my dad and step-mother move. Granted it was just down the block and around the corner. But it was interesting..... We thought of some D&D ideas for both of our groups. I need to do research on a few things still for one of the ideas.

Then I went to the bonfire with Claremore. XD It was great. Like amazing great. Then I stayed with him.... (three guesses what we did... ;D)

SUNDAY- I had family come in from way way outta town and we had a small family get together. (Granted we counted 73 people, but that's little for us.) At one point, my younger brother jokingly said to his friend "grab the other arm of her chair and we will throw her in the pool." So what do I do? Hand everything in my pockets to the nearest cousin and tell them to go for it. (Looking back I see the flaw in my judgment. You see, My brother and his friend are 16 and about 6 foot tall and both into being fit and muscly) They proceeded to carry me over to the pool while still in the lawn chair and toss me inti the water fully clothed. It was pretty freaking funny, but called for revenge. Luckily, I happened to have a big can of silly string in my car. =)

Later that night, I watched more Dollhouse with my co-dm and another close friend. =) (We have a problem we know. Damn Joss Wheden for his amazing TV shows....) We were really mean to each other but it was great.

MONDAY- Memorial Day is my mother's family reunion. It was great to see all our family and to visit and eat great food. Then a bunch of us gathered at my aunt's house. I was given like four paper bags full of books. =)  (Fay, if you are reading this, Thanks again!)

That evening was spent running around with my co-dm. And of course more Dollhouse. =)

Books + coffee= how to start a morning

So... I have a few book suggestions.

The Mortal Instruments series- This is a great series. There are characters you can't help but love or hate. The plot twists and turns and pulls you into the world of Downsiders and Shadowhunters. If you like fantasy and a dash of teeny bopper love and drama.

Rage- Teenage cutter turned into one of the four horsemen? Hell yes!!! I loved this book. If you are curious about cutting or know someone who cut(s) this can be a very informative book. Plus the storyline is wonderful. The characters feel real and like you'll getting to know them.

The Princess Bride- If you have seen the movie and liked it, you'll love the book. It's got everything from action, adventure, miracles, villains, heroes, pirates, and true love. Get the abridged verision to avoid long Moby Dick type passages. I highly highly suggest it. It's one of my favorites.

GRR... Mini Rant

So, I realize The Land Of Too Far is in the Bible belt. But, I am SO VERY sick of Christians who view themselves as better than non-Christians. Yeah, you go to church every Sunday,SO WHAT?
 I work and pay taxes just like you. I spend time with my loved ones just like you. I laugh, joke, and read (probably very different things but still). I have faith in my beliefs. SO BACK OFF!!!!

 It would be different if you had even a tiny gasp of my religion. But, after they do they little spill about how Wicca is bad and I ask them why, all they can say are things like "it's against the Bible". Okay, a point to you for kinda knowing your holy book. But, A) the Bible says it is not your place to judge (I was Christian for the first fourteen years of my life), B) you know nothing about my beliefs or usually who I am, and C) Bill of freaking rights!!!

So allow me to give you a few pointers on Wicca.
1. I do not worship the devil. (or believe in him or your Hell)
2. I don't just go around casting spells on people. (We believe what you send out comes back threefold.)
3.Harm none= most basic Wiccan rule.

Look, don't push your beliefs on me and I won't smack you.

Nicotine Kind Of Day

Today was totally a nicotine kinda day....

The morning was amazing. I ended up spending time with an awesome guy, who I'm now dating. =) He seems to be interested in more than my boobs, ass, and taste in music. Which is a nice change. We talked about the afterlife and what some of our political views are. So it would seem Claremore (nickname given by my friend, can you guess where he lives?) is interested in the gray matter in my mind. (NOT IN THAT WAY CHARLES AND DILLION!!!!!! PERVS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) So that called for a Victory Smoke (or two)

Then shit hit the fan, hard.

I have a close girl friend (Chicken Little personified, crazy, and annoying somedays. But I love her anyway), who is having a few serious relationship problems. Well, I'm her safe outlet for them. Which is totally cool. I love helping my friends with their problems. But, there isn't much to be done in this kinda situation. And since she is super stressed and upset. I stressed and worried. Thus leading to Worry Smoking.

Then my plans got re-arranged several times. Which on a normal night wouldn't be as bad except tonight was graduation in our small town. And I had two very close friends graduating (along with several people who for various reasons I'm no longer friends with but wanted to clap for anyway) and didn't get time to finish their gifts. Which caused much cussing and chain smoking. (granted if i smoke three cigarettes one after another I toss the pack out of my reach for a few)

But, it was a bittersweet moment to see my freshmen walk across that stage.

Also, I forgot to take my meds today resulting in a bad headache. Not to mention I don't like crowds. Thus more smoking and bad words.

But, we hung out after the ceremony in a friends basement and BSed like none other. And it was great. (also we decided to start another D&d group! WOOOO!!!!) Which led to one last Victory Smoke.

All in all, not a bad day.

PB and J Wars

So I was informed recently that I'm not human. All because I don't absolutely adore peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. Now, I'm not saying I hate them. I'm just not fanatical about them. I do not see what is so wrong about this. 

 I prefer my peanut butter with honey or bananas. Plus, I'm not big on grape flavored anything. Every once in a great while I will eat peanut butter mixed with some flavor of jelly. But not usually on bread. (which I'll admit is a bit odd) 

I feel as if a person's humanity should not be judged on how they eat their peanut butter. But on something more meaningful (such as actions, beliefs, D&D alignment or some other cliche crap).